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so lately i feel like ive been wasting my time. like the past 10 months has been a lie and that i will never be enough. apparently i dont deserve answers to all the little details that are kept from me. only to be uncovered at a time when i am incapable of responding to it. is it so much to ask? stop fucking using me.. it is seriously getting old. i am a comfort zone and a comfort zone only. i am the one that is there when nobody else is. but who is there for me? nobody. because i am everyones last resort. i just want to feel important.. needed. or at least special at all for that matter.
it hurts so much i cant explain :[
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I haven't updated in forever.
Merry Christmas eve guys.
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| At the library... |
[31 Mar 2005|04:58pm] |
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Hey guys, sorry its been so long. We had a storm last week and our computer comes on and everything but for some reason the mouse and keyboard don't work. We tried switching to our wireless ones but they didn't work either. Moms calling Compaq tonight to ask about it.
Spring break was lame for the most part. My birthday is in like 10 days. I'm getting a new board. An Element fiberlight. How exciting. People at fast food restaurants have been screwing up my orders a lot lately. How confusing is mustard, pickles and ketchup ONLY? I'm tired of ending up with cheese or mayonaisse on my burger. Yuck.
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| Another cell phone adventure... |
[18 Mar 2005|04:20pm] |
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Spring break is finally here! Although mine is longer than everyone elses cause I'm suspended the day we go back. My cell phone rang in class (why anyone would call me at school is beyond me) I thought I had it on vibrate. Blugh. Its cool though cause they were gonna give me 3 days of either suspension or AC. Fuck that.
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| Happy St. Patricks Day! |
[17 Mar 2005|07:36pm] |
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I think I hate myself. I'm so ridiculous. It took me 20 minutes to get up the balls to ROLL down the fucking pyramid. How stupid. So I finally did it, then I wouldnt do it again. Whatever.
I forgot to wear green today. Mom yelled at me cause my cell phone bill was $100. She should just put text messaging on our plan like I said, haha. If my bills high this month shes cutting my phone off. We had to get screened for scoliosis the other day at school. Tomorrows our last day and we're out for spring break! Yay!
I have a biology test tomorrow and Sams on the phone with me bugging me about studying for it. Father and I went to Arbys on the way home from the skate park. I love their curly fries. James is supossed to be going out of town tomorrow and not coming back until Monday. Our anniversary is Tuesday.
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| Do it, do it! |
[13 Mar 2005|05:41pm] |
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I want everyone who reads this to ask me 4 questions. Any 4, no matter how random. I have to answer them honestly. In turn, you have to post this message in your own journal, and you have to answer the questions that are asked of you.
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[12 Mar 2005|06:02pm] |
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On Thursday I got to get checked out of school for my dentist appointment which was cool. I got my teeth cleaned.. I have two minor cavities, one on each side so I have to have them filled during spring break. I chose to do them both on the same day so I'm gonna have a lot of novacaine.
Yesterday was.. tiring. I went to school, which was stressful cause I didnt have all my stupid homework and shit done. I have three D's and I'm gonna be in sooo much trouble this week when we get report cards =( Then I went to the skate park which was fun, as usual. I got home around 7:30.. then the parents and I decided to go out to pizza. I was exhausted when I got home so I passed out as soon as I walked in.
Today James and I went shopping in Monroe since we didnt get to go last weekend. It was hell at first. We ended up sitting around in Books a Million for over and hour cause James mom was intent on finishing this long ass book while we were in there rather than just buying it. Once we finally got out of there went went to McDonalds for lunch, then to the mall. James was being all bitchy about the stores I wanted to go to. He cheered up later when I spent $50 on him.
Mom has to have surgery April 6th.. four days before my birthday </3
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[08 Mar 2005|07:23pm] |
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Dad and I overslept today so I got checked in 2nd period. It was cool, I got an extra hour and 15 minutes sleep. Something weird happened but I dont feel like talking about it. I have a slurpee right now so I'm happy :) Skated today, I dont want to tomorrow, I want James to come over but I already know he wont unless it rains. Theres a 50% chance sooo.. you never know what will end up happening.
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| Goodbye February |
[02 Mar 2005|04:03pm] |
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Yesterday- Father and I went to the gas station and got breakfast. We were out of soda at home :( Im such a caffeine addict. Then I went to school, nothing really interesting happened that I can think of right now. I finished my library book (Stephen King's Christine). It was so good. I read all through 5th and 6th period until the end.. I couldnt put it down. After school James and I went to the skate park. That was fun. It usually is, though.
Today- More school.. this extended 4th period thing is ridiculous, we had to do it today on a Wednesday schedule, meaning we had to make all our morning classes shorter so we could have a FULL HOUR in 4th period. Ugh. Someone told me we're gonna have to do this until some time next week. I couldnt go to the skate park today because it rained. There was a sub in study hall so I called father in there to inform him that he needed to pick me up. I went to pay my library fine, which was .45 and I gave the girl a dollar. She didnt even know how much change to give me back. Then I checked out Misery. After school father and I went to McDonalds and now I'm watching Degrassi. (I have to download episodes because I dont have digital cable)
I really need to stop taking so many ibuprofen because I'm starting to get stomach aches from it. Plus I dont want to destroy my liver. I think my body is forming an addiction to it.
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| I wanna be a kennedy |
[27 Feb 2005|01:42pm] |
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I was up until 4:30 AM talking to Vince on the phone. Sleep probably wont come easy tonight.
Butttt.. I just got done eating a coke float and it was YUMMY :) So this makes me happy. Last night James said something about camping out in this guys car... that seems pretty stupid considering theres perfectly good beds where their staying. Oh well, when they wake up with back pains they can't blame me.
( sucker love is heaven sent )
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| Just because |
[26 Feb 2005|07:45pm] |
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Getting more comments makes me wanna update more <3
I havent gone anywhere today.. skated a little, ate, and read more of Christine which I have to take a test on by Friday. I have 102 pages left. James called me at like 2:30 AM but I was sleeping so I naturally didnt answer. So he called again at like 9 something but I was still sleeping. Finally at like 11 we got to talk.
My 3 year old little cousins over here. Shes being annoying and trying to put tape on my face. I think I'm going out to eat pizza with my parents in a little while. We always go out to pizza, its like... a family ritual since like.. a month ago. Yummy. NOOOO! Mothers talking about going to get chicken </3 Break the new family tradition why doesnt she... :P
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| weekends are great |
[26 Feb 2005|12:02am] |
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Yay! The weeks finally over. It was actually quite lame though. Today I went to the skate park and hung out with James and a few other people up there for like an hour while mom went grocery shopping. I'm trying to learn kickturns on ramps. I don't know why I make things harder than they have to be. Tomorrow Michael and I are talking about going to the skate park but I doubt it'll happen. James is gone out of town. Hes gone a lot. Sometimes it gets pretty lonely but I understand that it isnt his job to keep me occupied 24/7. He takes me out on the weekdays, so on the weekends I think he deserves his space.
You guys should fill this out.. its relatively short.
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06. What have you been listening to lately:
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08. Favourite band/singer:
09. Interesting fact about you:
10. Are you in love at the moment:
11. Favourite destination:
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13. When is your birthday:
14. Will you post this in your LJ:
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It turned out that James had to stay an extra night in FL so he didnt come back until Monday.(I got checked out of school during 3rd lunch because I had a migrane) So Tuesday was our 1 year 3 month anniversary.. we went out to the skate park because the weather was wonderful. Yesterday and today have been cold and rainy. The worst. I hate any type of precipitation. The weeks been boring. James came over yesterday and we watched Little Black Book. I also rented The Grudge. I know a lot of people said it sucked but I didn't think it was that bad. Maybe it's just because I like Sarah Michelle Gellar. I dunno. Tomorrows supossed to be nice so hopefully I get to go out.
In Journalism today we were correcting the index of the yearbook in a group and we were all argueing and I thought a fight was going to break out. A lot of feelings were hurt and whatnot, I'm glad I wasnt really into it with anyone. It was pretty amusing to watch though.
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| Whats the point in smiling when you have no one to smile for? |
[19 Feb 2005|06:59pm] |
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He's gone now. James I mean. He left for Florida this morning. I wasnt planning on seeing him after school yesterday but things worked out so that I could. He was surprised to see me. I'm used to him being gone on weekends, but it just feels different knowing hes on the other side of the country now. Last night I was so depressed when we hung up the phone because I knew it would be the last time we talked until he came back. Its ridiculous for me to be this upset, hes coming back tomorrow. It's okay though. I cant wait until Monday <3
On a happier note, father and I are going out to pizza in a few minutes when he gets out of the shower. Yum, I'm craving pizza. Pizza Inn's the best. Or maybe CiCi's, I havent decided which is better. Andy has to work a lot. It sucks, I cant talk to him as much. I have a toothache, mothers calling the dentist about it Monday. I got my hair cut Friday. Thank God, I had split ends like no other. It was pissing me off. I got my free Reach Access flosser thingy in the mail. Its pink. I love it, now flossing can be easier and stuff.
Your Brain is 53.33% Female, 46.67% Male |
Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female
You are both sensitive and savvy
Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed
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| Not again... |
[15 Feb 2005|10:21am] |
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So, yesterday was Valentines. I had a nice time. James mom wouldnt let us borrow the car though. We hung out at the skate park. It was so nice out. Its even nicer today but last night I started getting sick and couldnt sleep. I had a fever, headache and sore throat. I was so exhausted I went to bed at 8:30 and slept until like 10. When I woke up I felt awful. Jeremiah called me and we talked until 12:45 am. I was glad I had someone to talk to while I was sick. I hung up with him to go back to sleep which was horrible. I didnt fall asleep until like 2. When mother woke me this morning for school I told her I wasnt going and that if I was feeling better later she could check me in (I really only said that so I can go to the skate park while its beautiful out) So I called James to let him know I wasnt going to be at school and he said if I'm not feeling well then I should just stay home and rest. I told him okay but if I'm feeling better I'll come to school. I didnt expect to actually feel better but I just woke up a little while ago and I feel much better. My headaches almost gone, I dont have a fever and my throat only hurts a little. So far Ive missed biology, english and geometry. To hell with geometry. Todays and early day which means I have to be back at school by 2:40. I dont even know how much sleep I got total. I think I'm going to go get a bath and ask my mom to take me to lunch, then to school. <3-lyn
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This week was good kind of. Getting out of school 3/5 days isn't bad. Plus next week we get out early 2 days and Thursday we're out. I still have to go to my Cats Confrence at 9 though. It'll be short so it wont matter. The weather was so wonderful yesterday! So was today but I didnt get to go out today and I was fuckin mad. Oh well, I'm over it. Sam let me borrow his Warped Tour CD's cause I gave him the answers to the biology homework the other night.
James is such a great guy. I've never known anyone like him. He's constantly coming up with crazy things to do and funny things to say. I've learned so much from him. It's like when I'm with him I never want to leave. He's my everything <3
Progress reports are coming. Actually, they may be here already but we were just too lazy to get the mail. If not, their coming tomorrow. I better not get any bad grades. Stupid geometry. Mr. Howard was being such a little hoe about the homework today. He gave half the class 0's because they "didnt show their work". There really wasnt much work to show. But anyway even if they didnt, I think he should have atleast given points for attempting. Oh well. Well I'm on the phone and its kind of hard to multitask so I'm gonna go.
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So I thought this week would be good. The weather was looking good for tomorrow but now its supossed to rain. Big fucking surprise, all it does here is rain. Its hard to do anything outside when everything is soaking wet. Anyway, this weekend wasnt too interesting. James came over Sunday which was fun. We watched Shaun of the Dead. Way funny. James, Sanlot and I went out today. We drove around all over the place. We went through streets I never even knew existed. Im watching More Sex and the Single Mom. I figured since I saw the first one I should see the sequel. Im really tired cause I only slept like 5 1/2 hours last night. Tad and I sent each other a whole crapload of text messages today. Its gonna cost like no other.
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Comment and fill this out..
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. Would you ever go out with me?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
28. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
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| another survey |
[02 Feb 2005|04:41pm] |
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SECTiON 1 [YOU.]
+ your name: Lyn
+ your gender: chick
+ age: 15
+ height: 5'3
+ hair color: light brown
+ eye color: blue
+ your location: eldorado
+ fears: waterbugs!!
SECTiON 2 [ HAVyE YOU EVER ]
+ peed your pants? Not since I was little
+ cheated on someone? yeah
+ fallen off the bed? yeah haha
+ fallen for a relative? gross
+ had plastic surgery? nope
+ broke someone's heart? yeah
+ had your heart broken? yeah
+ had a dream come true? Maybe
+ done something you regret? yeah plenty
+ cheated on a test? yeah
+ been raped? no
+ broken a body part? nope
SECTiON 3 [ CURRENTLY]
+ wearing - jeans, billabong hoodie, globes
+ listening to - Gwen Stefani - Crash
+ chewing - big red
+ feeling - cold
+ reading – this
+ located - computer room
+ chatting with – nobody
+ watching - nothing
+ where should you REALLY be - asleep
SECTiON 4 [ DO YOU... ]
+ brush your teeth? for sure
+ like anybody? yeah
+ have any piercing? ears but I dont wear earrings lol
+ drive? no =(
+ believe in Santa Claus? yeah
+ ever get off the computer? sometimes
SECTION 5 [ FRiENDS ]
+ do you belong to a crew? No, Im not really a people person
+ do you hang out with the opposite sex? thats pretty much all I hang out with
+ do you consider yourself popular? hell no
+ do you trust your friends? maybe like 2 of them
+ are you a good friend? sometimes
+ can you keep a secret? kind of
SECTiON 6 [ THE LAST PERSON YOU...]
+ IMed – ren
+ talked to on the phone – mom
+ yelled at ? – Not sure
+ fell in love with - James
SECTiON 7 [ PERSONAL ]
+ What do you want to be when you grow up? Something easy (not slut wise, haha)
+ What was the worst day of your life? today was on up there
+ What has been the best day of your life? Nov. 22, 2003
+ What comes first in your life? friends and James <3
+ Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend/crush? yeah
+ If you had an extra set of eyes were would you put them? maybe my wrists.. I dont know! What a weird question
+ What do you usually think about before you go to bed? "I wish I would have gone to bed earlier so I wont be so tired tomorrow"
SECTiON 8 [ FAVORITE . . .]
+ Movie: Cruel Intentions, skate videos, the Girl Next Door, Napoleon Dynamite
+ Song: theres a lot...and it changes like every week (no mainstream stuff though)
+ Group: Interpol?
+ Store: Pac Sun maybe.. I like to order my stuff though
+ Relative: yeah right..
+ Vacation Spot: Virginia (only reasonably cool place Ive been)
+ Fruit: straberries
+ Candy: Blue sour straws <3
+ Holiday: Christmas
+ Day of the Week: Wednesday or Friday
+ Color: I dont know
+ Magazine: Thrasher
+ Name for a Girl: Cecille
+ Name for a Boy: Ryan
SECTiON 9 [ DO YOU . . .]
+ Like to give hugs? getting them is better
+ Like to walk in the rain? NO I HATE RAIN!!!
+ Sleep with or without clothes on? with
+ Prefer black or blue pens? blue
+ Dress up on Halloween? havent in a few years
+ Have a job? nope
+ Like to travel? yeah
+ Like someone? Yeah
+ Sleep on your side, tummy or back? my side
+ Think you're attractive? - no not really
+ Want to marry? - of course
+ Have a goldfish? - no =(
+ Ever have the falling dream? - sometimes, its scary!
+ Have stuffed animals? - of course
+ Go on vacation? – sometimes
SECTiON 10 [ WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT . . .]
+ Abortion: only if theres a really good reason for it
+ Bill Clinton: He was rad! <3
+ Eating Disorders: retarded
+ Summer: ITS GREAT!!
+ Tattoos: Dont really like
+ Piercing: nah, dont want those either
+ Make-up: its okay
+ Drinking: hate it
+ Guys: their awesome
+ Girls: a few are okay, a lot of them are biotches here
SECTiON 11 [ THIS OR THAT]
+ Pierced nose or tongue? ewww neither, tongue rings chip your teeth while nose piercings look retarded
+ Be serious or funny? - goofy
+ Simple or Complicated? - simple
+ MTV or BET? - MTV.. dont watch much TV though
+ 7th Heaven or Dawson's Creek? - 7th heaven for sure
+ Sugar or salt? - depends on what its with
+ Silver or gold? - silver
+ Tongue or belly button ring? bellybutton but Id never get it pierced
+ Chocolate or flowers? chocolate
+ Angels or miracles? – either would be uber cool
+ Color or Black-and-white photos? both look great
+ Sunrise or sunset? rise.. I dont wanna be up early enough to watch it set
+ M&M's or Skittes? M&M's
+ Rap or Rock? rock!
+ Stay up late or sleep in? both...
+ TV or radio? - TV
+ Hot or cold? - hot weather is better. winter sucks balls.
+ members of the opposite sex taller or shorter? taller
+ Sun or moon? moon
+ Diamond or Ruby? diamonds
+ Left or Right? Left
+ 10 acquaintances or one best friend? one best friend.
+ Vanilla or chocolate? - chocolate
+Kids or no kids? - NONE!
+ Half-empty or Half-full? full
+Mustard or ketchup? - both
+ Newspaper or Magazine? - magazine
+ Spring or Fall? both are perfect
+ Give or receive? both
+ Rain or snow? - I hate any kind of precipitation
+ Happy or sad? happy
+ sneakers or sandals? sneaks
+ McDonald's or Burger King? love them both
+ Mexican or Italian food? Mexicano
+ Lights on or off? off if Im sleeping
+ A house in the woods or the city? the city.
+ Pepsi or Coke? pepsi is really good when its a fountain drink
+ Nike or ADIDAS? Nike but they both suck HxC
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